You Just Haven't Earned It Yet, Baby

Had a big ole "AERODYNAMICS" meeting w/ Steve, the editor,
a week back. Sundance looming late shorts deadline is Sep 21st.
Slamdance final postmark deadline's shortly thereafter-- Oct 9th.
SXSW is in Dec.

Guess what? Ain't gonna happen. Not this year. I'm
roughly $10grand away in post-production costs for
that to happen (including my outstanding bill w/ Steve
from last year).

I've been slowly reconciling myself to this fact--Year 6.
That's 1 more year than "WIDWIWA" and that was a
feature! That's another year of self-discipline & poverty
& isolation. That's another year of NOTHINGNESS!

I'm trying to be positive about it. First and foremost,
Steve has been extremely supportive & patient esp.
w/ my bill. If we were to push onwards for Sundance...
even if I was to scrap together some kind of fundraiser...
I'd still be leaving him in the lurch w/ a whole lotta
receipt. So meeting up once a month or so to edit,
paying incrementally from here on thru 2008, keeps
the bill in check.

Second affirming flip-side is I get out of debt w/ credit
cards. Pay off Best Buy for a laptop I purchased in 2004!
Snip that bit of plastic by year's end. Then move on to
my VISA (aka the petty cash fund for Final Model FX.
music video & many many more such shoots). Heck! In
a couple year's time I'll even have the 2 loans paid off +
the student loan garnishment. How fiscally rosy life will
be!

Third and lastly, I can keep busy w/ music videos and
other projects ie. Improv Boston play. If Steve & I were
to bulldozer ahead...the November music video shoot
would be out. No co-financing there. So as long as I keep
busy, buffing the resume reel a little bit at a time. As long
as I stay current...I stay relevant. I stay sane.

That last bit is important. Long weekend's like this are
killer.

Back to Walter Sickert storyboards then.